I'm Having A Really Hard Time

My weakness has been showing through this past week. With the normal bills we have trouble paying, plus Christmas coming soon, my stress levels are high! I just do not see money for gifts this year! I wasn't planning much for all. Princess, mainly, and not a whole lot. (Besides, she gets so much from family.) So her's should be do-able, I hope!! And the boys understand, but I would still like to get them something. Then there are those family members that are gifting us. --No matter how many times I say please DON'T!!--I feel bad not to gift back.
I know they understand our situation, but I HATE it!! I hope to find a little something-inexpensive, of course.

I am fully aware that Christmas isn't about the gifts. It is indeed truly about Jesus' birth! But the gift giving is a part of the whole celebration!

We usually don't do much gifting outside the house. Usually just parents and something small for some nieces and nephews. I don't see any of this happening this year. To top it off, this Christmas I will have 2 new twin nephews- and everyone knows how you HAVE TO gift a baby's first Christmas!!- a new niece--although she is 12, we just found out that she is my brother's child!!--and a -sort of- new nephew--LONG STORY!! I would like to gift them, as well, but don't see that happening either!!

In our house, at Christmas, we usually just gift each other with the things we need, ie: some needed clothing, socks, undies, etc. to replace any worn or outgrown ones. As well as something we may have wanted--or needed in some cases--through the past year that we couldn't afford to pick up. It's the one time of year we splurge-even at birthdays we don't do much, besides we don't take vacations.

I know things will work out. It's just discouraging sometimes!!

This being said, I was made at peace after reading my passages from my Bible Study the other day.
PSALM 27 was just what I needed to bring me back from my hopelessness!
I don't know why I let myself get that way-why I let Satan get to me.
Human weakness I suppose.
This is something I need to work on!!

The verses are so true and reaffirm my faith in the Lord's everlasting love for me!!




^JUST ^j^ BELIEVE^